Monday, May 17, 2010

Keep It Simple Stupid...


I feel this eagerness to change many things today. It's like this whirlwind of anxiety came over me and suddenly the world needs to comply with my every whim!

I want to be thinner, I want a perfectly normal relationship. I want to make more money. I want to buy a condo in Long Island City overlooking the most fabulous city in the world. I want to go out dancing every night.

I want to not be disappointed by other people's actions
I want to be free from sadness
I want to be able to wear high heels all night without complaining of foot pain
I want enough money to buy a year's worth of jewelry supplies
I want to be the best mother, best teacher, best designer, best, best, best....
I want to be the prettiest girl in the room
I want to be younger
I want, I want, I want...

do we ever tire of wanting.

I need to feel safe and secure and loved
I need to trust
I need to know that my daughter is happy and safe
I need to make sure that I am always growing spiritually and mentally
I need to know that in God's eyes I am always beautiful
I need to make one piece of jewelry that I love
I need to live in peace, regardless of the view
I need my family
I need to be forgiven
I need to forgive

I think I'll keep it simple today.

8 comments:

Holly Renee said...

I seriously love this post. I know the feeling of wanting and needing. It's nice to keep it simple sometimes.

Leah Rubin said...

Nothing wrong with that-- I'm with you-- you're not really asking for too much.

Found you on SITS-- come see me, too. I'll pour you a cup of coffee!

L.

cheri said...

i love this post. it's raw and honest. by the way, your designs are fabulous!

shuttling in from SITS :)

Adriana said...

great post!!! Your jewlry is amazing.(stopping by from sits)

Katherine said...

thanks for the comment...I'm going to have a look around your blog and get comfy...you do great work!

Writing Without Periods! said...

How evocative...keeping it simple is tough. I love the line, "I want to be the prettiest girl in the room." Amazing.
Mary

LynnM1970 said...

I wanna be you. You are so talanted and you can be anything you want to be if you put your mind to it. You've already acomplished most of the things "you want" you just need to see the Cindy that the rest of the world sees. With your talent there is no stopping you from having every thing you want and more.

Mimi said...

What a fantastic post!

I'm stopping by to welcome you to SITS!