Winter... Ya Gotta Go!

Yesterday was seriously crappy weather. I don't know what it is about this Winter that has me feeling soooo blahhhh. It's not even like I want to go to a warmer climate, I just want my New York City in the Spring!

AAAhh I love that first warm breeze and the scent of cool rain that first hits me around March..It is usually in the evening, I will be standing outside looking at the moon or(taking out garbage) when all of a sudden a gentle breeze will caress my face and the fragrant smell of Spring enters my nostrils. To me it is a gentle reminder that in the force of the wind and cold....A new day is coming.

Well, anyhow while I was stuck indoors the whole weekend I tinkered with my copper and made two awesome rings which have alot of movement and whimsy. One has a ruby czech crystal, both are hand forged and slightly textured.

Onyx and sterling silver....simple

Now Where Did that Faith go???

There are mountains in my life right now that seem impossible to climb. It has been months now of tears and sadness. I have watched relationships deteriorate, mental illness and depression overtake people I love, one of my best friends lost her mom to cancer a few days ago,,,and we are all struggling financially, spiritually,,you name it, there is pain and sadness everywhere.

Like a soldier who has gone AWOL I feel as if I have abandoned my spiritual duty. I used to be a woman of faith and prayer and now I find myself diminished to an overanxious, fearful shell of a woman who has relied on outwardly distractions to try to heal what is inside....How did this happen? I lost my faith,,,,but not for long.

My tearful eyes came across this passage in the bible the other day
Mark 11:23
Truly I say to you, whoever says to this mountain be taken up and thrown into the sea; and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will come to pass, it will be done for him.

I used to believe that this scripture meant that if our faith was big enough, we could literally move a mountain into the sea; but then I would think, "well, I guess no one has faith that big because I have yet to see someone toss a mountain into the sea".

The other day however, I read this scripture differently. I thought about the mountains in our lives: the mountain of fear, the mountain of pain, sadness, despair. Jesus said that by having faith, these mountains WILL be tossed into the sea and what we prayed for SHALL COME TO PASS. Believe and it will come to pass. How wonderful that we should have a God that wants us to have this kind of faith in HIS power. Today, if you are reading this I challenge you to take whatever mountain is in your life and ask God to take it and toss that bad boy into the sea! get rid of it, believe that it shall come to pass. Pray..Pray..Pray

I am resolved that I will be (if anything) a prayerful woman once again. Nothing feels better, more liberating than to come to God with all your worries and fears AND to expect that he will resolve them. He is faithful even when we are not! The Lord says that in this world we WILL have trouble but to take heart! he has overcome the world!

So be it!

LOVE

I am at a crossroads in my life. Like Tracy Chapman sang: " I look to my left I look to my right, hands, they grab me on every side"...
So much to do and I am wondering what direction to take my life in now. I am glad that jewelry making for me quiets my mind and keeps me focused on a task. The finished outcome is always a good release of energy for me. I am proud of what I make, even when it does not come out perfect. I hope that I will come out stronger from these present challenges I face and that my heart will be at peace, filled with hope and laughter. I am, after all, a great woman who deserves all these things. So are all of you who read this. Keep on doing what you are doing that makes you happy, hopeful and strong.

LOVE courageously.....

I created these hand stamped necklaces with comforting words in mind and I hope you like them :)

LIVE LAUGH LOVE


HOPE


PEACE/LIVE

Stay Gold

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

I remember reading "The Outsiders" by S.E. Hinton and of course this poem has stayed with me for years. Ponyboy Curtis and Johnny, who remembers them?

PEACE

What I am looking for
What the world needs
What you need....

Let It Go

What I hoped would be impossible. My creative energy has been at a stalemate for the last few weeks. I broke my ankle and then someone broke my heart. So now I am dealing with fixing things both physical and spiritual. Trust me when I say I had days when I wanted to give up. What is it like when you are faced with blatant rejection and serious disappointment? I've done the pajama and uncombed hair thing. I have called 100 friends to help me in this time. Seriously I truly understand all those songs that make u want to cry in the bathroom and take a few valium....I must say I do not always shy away from the truth of my feelings. I had big plans and hopes and when you have to let a dream go....that is the hardest part. So my goal today is to reach out to all of you because the creative process in everything we do suffers when we suffer. As one well known artist has said "as artists we are eternally brokenhearted" and I agree totally with that statement. I gotta tell you that I am not afraid. I am not afraid. I am truly blessed because God has given me countless people who have loved me through everything. My vow today is to take back the power I once had and to remember that I am the daughter of a king. I meditated today and in my mind I saw an image of myself in a small boat leaving the shore of a lake. I saw my wet feet climb into the boat and watched my hands push off from the shore...To let go that is all you have to do...get in the boat and push off the shore...where u go from there is what is called your future, your hope and a new beginning.. Embrace your fear and let it go..Like Erykah Badu sang.."all you must hold on to is you"...Let It Go....Peace and Grace.