Now I am a true believer in doing your best to maintain positive vibes, especially when you are in the middle of creating jewelry. But yesterday, I don't know, while I was taking out wire to form a cage for this gorgeous stone, I was feeling a little down and thinking about current disappointments. I am also worried about the current state of the education field here in NYC with layoffs looming over teacher's heads. For someone like me who is in grad school for education, this is not news you want to hear. I just did not have it in me to bring forth the good energy it takes to create..so as I was picking up the stone to create a piece, I accidentally dropped it and it fell on the floor and cracked into pieces....LORD! I cursed like a sailor and at that moment I knew, I should not have started the project with such negative vibes....I quickly grabbed gorilla glue, wire, and tape to try to put the pieces back together..
I went to work and lamented the whole day wondering what that stone would look like when I got home. Luckily the glue dried perfectly and the crack in the stone was not so obvious. I continued to work on the piece and decided to finish what I had started. This is the final piece, cracks and all but I still think it came out nice.
No matter how I try to cover that stone up with wire, it will always be flawed and broken now. Of course, in my mind I compare it to parts of myself which feel broken and unfixable at this time. I am just in a moment in which I need to look within and upwards to God to fill those cracks and areas that have become unglued and undone. I know I won't be able to sell this piece now but I am keeping it for myself as a reminder of a few things. Even flawed as it is, it is still beautiful and with God's grace, so am I.
